wooo

i love you


you looked so amazing my angel.









it was a good night.
kind of.
aside from that one little thing.

xoxx

this can end in two ways.

1. you are honest with yourself, your friends and your family.
you stop being ashamed of who you are, stop caring what people thing. You witnessed it today, the people who really care about you are happy for us. they are your/ our true friends. not the ones who dont care.
You love me and trust me and know that even if everyone hates you, i will get you through it. I will save you and protect you from everything.

or

2. we will continue like this, you will hide. I will be in pain. You will say sorry and i will forgive you. We will continue like this until one of us leaves. and breaks the other ones heart. Circle of death kind of thing.
It will be hard and difficult and have more days like we did today. We will continue to be happy with each other but really have nothing.

these are our two options.
I do trust you, I know you will never mean to hurt me.
But it will happen wont it? No false hope.


Ek Het Jou Lief
but is that enough?

xxx

<33

we would be better apart.

but i don't want to do it.
because even though i know you would be better off in the long run without me.
I'm to scared.

Today was hard and i didn't enjoy it one bit.

But I was happy I cried in front of you,

I don't cry, I'm not allowed to cry, but I could not stand in front of you and hide it.

I was happy I cried, that you could see me like that, it means you really are the dearest person in my life. 

I trust you. (I do not trust anyone else in my life)

and I hope you trust me to, because when I promise you I will never hurt you again- I mean it and will stick to it!

Your sad? your in pain? your hurt? 

Im not really sure, but I know something is wrong (no shit) and I have this very strong need to help! Your so special to me that I stress and panic because I don't know what to do. 

So for now I'm here just waiting, but if there is anything I can do to make it better, please come to me, ask it of me, talk to me....

Because well, I love you Princess always have always will

xxx Ek het jou lief 

ARNOTT'S Tim Tam

i like tim tams.
:(
i am captian depresso..

:D

he never deserved you, your far to good for him. He had NO right to treat you the way he did.
You are an amazing person and he didn't appreciate you.
I will never treat you like that.

And as for her, she has dug herself a hole she won't easily get out of, talking to hope and ash in computers made me realize even her friends hate her for this. And if you let her live (which it didn't look like you were going to).. I SHOT GUN NEXT IN LINE!
there i said it... so I'm next! got it!

I hate the male species. They are all fuckers. Except Ryan, he is a 'good cunt'

:)

mmm yummy in my tummy

;)

again

RIP Erika,
We had our differences. But i'm sorry for it all. I hope you forgive me one day for leaving you.
xxx

.You havn't text me back.

I hurt because of you right now, I've never admitted this till now.
Text me back, i need to talk to you.

You gave me false hope.

xxxxx

i'm scared of the truth

Remember...please

I'm always here for you.

No matter what 

Even if its to hard and you don't want me here.

I'll still be here. Just waiting until you are ready 

(there is no hurry- I'm not going anywhere)

Hang in there Princess

Ek he jou lief 

xxxxx

so sorry

i'm pushing you away because it is easier.
sorry baby.
:(

it wont be easy for you
x

yeha

over over over, it is over
don't care anymore.

be happy with jordan, not chris.
at least he treats you like the angel you are.

:(
andy

xxx