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my worst mistake was doubting you.
im so sorry.
please forgive me, you know i am fucked up, i've let you into the inner workings of my mind and you know how screwed i am.
i trust you, you KNOW that. I cannot lie to you, it's to hard. thats why i have to tell you everything i think because you ask me how i am.

no matter what, i will always be insecure babe. im not perfect, and even though i trust you more than i trust anyone ( hell id trust you with my metallica songs! thats ALOT of trust x )
but i still feel like you would/could leave me at any moment because of the simple fact. im not good enough for you. i never have been. you deserve to be happy and to have fun and all of those things that make life worthwile. i dont know if i can give you that, i dont see myself as able to make you happy because i fall in comparison to you, your an angel, perfect in everyway. no flaws what so ever.
so, you see, i dont deem myself worthy of you and so i think you will leave me at any time to have someone thats closer to how perfect you are.

and the family thing is hard to get over soo...

i love you and..
im sorry
x