Te Puku Paekaua

is it better? are those the wrong choice of words?

is it... tolerable now?

will i be able to let go and relax now?

sometimes its better, sometimes its not.. it changes almost hourly.. like today..started ok, went to bad and by the end of it we were laughing together on the couch..

the stress of always having to be in control hurts my head :(

I'm so confused

we work something out.. but it keeps coming back

I think we need to have a proper talk.. not over text or in a spare ten minutes where you have to see me..

a talk where we can sit down without being pressured to get it out quickly because you have to leave soon or cant stay long.

some might call this a date.

but how crazy is that idea.. actually going on a DATE with my girlfriend. PFFT

i know that makes me sound..bitchy..thats not how i meant it.. its just the way it came out

i WANT to help..i really do. trust me. i just don't know how.. we will figure it out together.. and it will be fine.

that initial.MAJOR feeling of yours will go away, i promise. i will help. It will get better.

remember i cannot lie to you.. so when i say it will get better..i must be telling the truth right?! lol

ONE A BRITER NOTE

gore was AMAZING this weekend, if i hadn't spent sunday there too it would have been premo!

it was just so relaxed..no stess i could completly relax without that little feeling inside me. it was so SO cool

i would like to do it again sometime..only with one small thing changed.

ok im done

ek het jou lief

xxxx