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i kind of feel like dying
jumping off the balcony is tempting, very very tempting.

i want to end it, not in the suicidal way.
there's a tiny part that wants to be free. . .
but i cant. I really really don't want to. . i cant ignore that tiny part though.

but i will never leave. never end it. never be separated from what i love.
it hurts just a bit TOO much, i said i wouldn't let it happen again.

oh well.

ek het jou lief
xx