. . .LMFAO

HIS name starts with C. HE is a asshole. HE should have been left to die in the gutter last night. but NO...HE is still fucking alive and in my fucking way.
I'll kill HIM. i swear to god i will fucking kill HIM with my hands wrapped around HIS neck, i will not let go till HE is breathing no more.

and no, I'm not talking about Callum, my hands wouldn't fit around his neck.

kill kill kill. . .die die die
arrogant piece of crap that HE is, UGH.

OK that's my wee angry note..

hmmm I'm scared to lose you, lose you to him. i don't want to not have you in my life.
i feel like what you are saying to me, you say to hi also.
when you say he doesn't mean a thing, that you feel sick whenever you kiss him or touch him, that you don't love him..what if that is how you feel about me, not him.
i don't know why i think this..because it doesn't make sence, why would you do that. it wouldn't achieve anything except hurting me because no one knows so its not like your doing it for a cover..
I'm just to insecure about everything. you know?

i do love you, its not just lust..like i thought. i love you.
but what if I'm not all you want, what if i cant give you what you want. what if you love someone else.
one of them. the one you said you could love. how will i cope when he comes back and you actually like spending time with him, being with him, kissing him..

i wont pretend that it doesn't make me want to throw up. That i don't wish i could you let be happy.
it hurts to much angel. but if i keep ignoring this, if it happens, i wont no how to deal with it. I'll break. on the other hand if i deal to it now and its never an issue what if there's a chance i interfere with my feelings..or lose them. it would be hard,but what if...

just because you can spend time with him..does that mean you have to?
i know, I'm selfish..but can you blame me..YOUR PERFECT!
and perfection is so addictive, once you've had it..nothing will ever compare
nothing will compare to the way you look at me, the way your touch makes my stomach flip over itself, the way when you kiss me all thought and rational thinking goes out the window. The things that I've seen..I've never seen anyone or anything so beautiful and perfect.like WOW.
so anyone else..will never compare to the perfection of you.
so I'm pretty much fucked if you fall for one of them aren't i?!

You've changed me so much angel. I don't know how but you have..you have this calming effect on my..you bring out the child in me.
and i enjoy it, you separate me from my mind and allow me to have fun.
i love you, always have always will.

as for the other two..do what makes you happy.